Last Day in HR

It’s true.
today’s my last day here for awhile. I saved a lot “to-do” today.. but I feel like I’m making progress.
I did get distracted for about an hour when I decided I needed to cut my hair before I moved….. it looks good though. it does :)
I’m not planning on paying for haircuts or haircolor more than once a year, I decided.

because I like it better when I do it anyway, and I must say I’m improving.
anyway. left on my list is, basically, to just finish my laundry, hang up my clothes, throw my entire closet in garbage bags and figure out how to fit everything into my car.. ha.

I need to install I’ll have to ask my DAD install my new windshield wipers at some point. and there’s a leak/hole in the rubber part that goes between my door & the car. water get’s through. I’d like to fix that.. it may have to wait =/

tonight, the family is getting SUSHI & I’m going dancing in Portland for Marcus’s grad. party. so many people will be there, I’m really glad I get to go and spend my last night in OREGON dancing :) it’s fitting, no?

TOMORROW THE ADVENTURE BEGINS.

and I’m ready for it. I’m really excited.
and I’m in good spirits.

I think my bout of laughter last night reset the emotional balance in my system. I’m feeling much more normal and it’s a good thing.

I still can’t really listen to slow, introspective, beautiful music yet.
which, I’m realizing, is what most of my music collection is comprised of…
soon enough :)

xo

Laugh it out.

I was feeling pretty.. melancholy. earlier.
I’m in much better spirits now, haha.
all because I got pulled over on the way home.
for those who don’t know me well, I’ve been pulled over more times than I can even remember. if I had to guess, literally, I’d guess that I’ve been pulled over for speeding, running a stop light, not having my headlights on, turning into the wrong lane, on and on it goes, somewhere between 15-20 times.
I have never been given a ticket.
not even once.
tonight, I was sure that I was going to get a ticket. it just seemed fitting. everything else has fallen into place SOMETHING needed to go wrong to throw the balance off…. but instead, he let me go with a warning :)

as soon as he was back in his car and I was on the road, I just started laughing.. and couldn’t stop, lol. I texted Katie (conversation below) and came home and laughed about it with my family.




me: I just got pulled over for speeding.
katie: did you get a ticket???
me: of course not ;)
katie: you are a champion :)
me: hahahahahaa
katie: you're unbelievable. lol.
me: I thought for sure my luck had run out... I don't have my papers yet for this car. I didn't even have the purchase receipt with me.
katie: did they ask for them?
me: yes. I only have my temporary proof of insurance as well. still let me off with a warning. and told me to have a safe trip to Cali.
katie: hahaha I love it.

My mom, sister and I then all laughed and gave each other a hard time about clothes and school and things I keep trying to pawn off on my sister that just end up going into the “goodwill” pile. Anyway. Long story short, I’m in a really fun, happy mood & now I’m drinking my coffee, starting Grey’s Anatomy, then watching Project Runway and calling it a night.
Tomorrow is going to be a busybusybusy sadly wonderful emotional but awesome day.
xo

Currently:

I’m laying on my bed in a huge pile of clothes that need to be sorted, hung up & packed away. And my poor little Jade is lying next to me. She has the saddest eyes ever right now. I think it’s because she’s sleepy.

she’s spent most of the day with me. lounging about while I try to force myself to clean and pack and “work”. I did make progress though. my armoir and nightstands are completely cleaned out. my dresser is halfway emptied. nothing is hiding under my bed anymore :)

all I really have left is to do all my laundry tomorrow, pack a weekend bag, pack up my closet and find a way to make all of this fit in my car. haha. that will be the biggest challenge of all. I feel like I’m hardly taking ANYTHING with me.. which, is better, I know. even still, it’s going to be a tight fit.
I’m leaving here in about 20 minutes to drive up to The Dalles to see my miss Arlie Cates one more time before the move. TONIGHT IS MY LAST NIGHT IN MY BED for a long time. woah. that just hit me. my last night in my house.

I will probably cry myself to sleep tonight.
darn it.

I was doing so well this week. but now, I feel like the dam’s about to break loose.. I only have to make it one more day.

it just sucks because you’re trying so hard to keep your emotions in check that you don’t exhibit ANY.. you just, sort of mechanically do the things you know you need to do.

I’ve been avoiding talking about the move.. I am excited. I do want to share it with people. But putting all my stuff in boxes almost makes me lose it. I know if I try to look my parents in the eye or think about driving away I’ll just be done for. and I’m not ready for that yet. I can’t do that yet. I absolutely know I’ll be a blubbering fool when I have to leave, I don’t need to start now.

xo

Farewell Dance

Farewell Dance @ Lenoras 1/20/10 from Jennifer on Vimeo.

Last night, at Lenora’s, they gave me a “farewell” dance. I miss this already! Really really.

"lasts"

lost of “lasts” today.
tonight, I’m having dinner with some dear friends for the last time in a long time.. it’s sort of become tradition for the three of us to get dinner and catch up on life every few months or so.. I don’t know when I’ll see them after today.
it’s also my last night at Lenora’s… one of my “homes” for the past 6 months. there are only a few weeks I didn’t make it into town to dance, and that’s only because I was sick or out of the country :) but, it will be weird to leave there for the last time.
related to that, it’ll be the last time I drive home from Portland in the middle of the night! I should make some sort of mix cd to celebrate the drive.. but I don’t think I’ll miss that too much ;)

three more days.
xo