I bought music for the drive.

oh yes I did.
my collection for the trip down will be fantastic.

just look who’ll be joining me!:
The Bird and the Bee - The Bird and the Bee & Ray Guns Are Not Just the Future
Dirty Projectors - Bitte Orca
Needtobreathe - The Outsiders
Paper Route - Absence
the Yeah Yeah Yeah’s - It’s Blitz
Kate Earl - Kate Earl
Never Say Never - Never Say Never

and of course some old favorites, like:

Natalie Portman’s Shaved Head - Glistening Pleasure
Santigold - Santigold
Charlotte Sometimes - Waves and the Both of Us
The Civil Wars - Live at Eddie’s Attic
Elizabeth & The Catapults - Taller Children
She & Him - Volume One
The Script - The Script
The Ting Tings - We Started Nothing

it’s going to be a party! want to come?
anyone? any takers? anyone at all??
xo

the first and last sunday

contemplative? yes.
I’m realizing the enormity of what’s happening… already.
it seems soon.
I guess it’s not. yesterday began my week of “lasts”.
saturday - last shift at the hotel.
sunday - last day at church, last night at the BDC
wednesday - last night at Lenora’s
thursday - last night in HR
friday - last night in Portland
……and away we go. that’s it. then I leave.
today was harder than I anticipated. emotions are just already running higher and stronger than I expected and I’m crying already. the tears have started. not because I’m afraid, not even because I’m sad.
I know that everything I’m doing is what is right for me, for now. I know I’m supposed to go and start a new chapter.
but it’s almost as though my hormones don’t understand and they just know change is coming.. like how my dog’s can already sense that I’m preparing to leave them.
my hormones, tricky little suckers, are just sensing that.. along with the adventure that is the unknown. and today they decided to make themselves known.
I’ll be dealing with them all week I’m sure.
it’s just different this time.
because, for the first time, this move doesn’t have a time-table attached to it. I’m not going away for 9 months for school. I’m not going to be living and working at an internship for 3 months. I’m not even going abroad for a year or two.

I’m just going. With no idea whether I’ll ever move back or not..
that blows my MIND.
that literally blows my mind.
xo

live to tell the tale, passion pit

this is the room where we always dreamed
of grass and splendid evenings
emitting frequencies, lost between the
leaves and things
and i held on brightly, crushing quietly
feeling mountains rising out of
make-believe seas, creating typhoons
of feelings not easily made without need

god bless that smile on your face
god bless the seeds in the ground
god bless my family's keen gaze,
oh, i know
that whatever happens to you,
whatever happens to me,
i hope that i'll fall asleep
knowing that you'll always be
the story with no ending

the whole slew blossomed beautifully,
and i was beside myself
so i gave into your love
as you rapture asleep, upended
and this is like i have always dreamed:
cobblestone and dusty feet
that's the way it should always be
head over heels and deftly
wonderful and healthy

god bless that smile on your face
god bless the seeds in the ground
god bless my family's keen gaze, oh,
i know that whatever happens to you,
whatever happens to me,
i hope that i'll fall asleep
knowing that you'll always be
the story with no ending

i never thought you were here
you've never left me, have you?
you've never left me at all--not once, and i'm sorry i'm such a bore
i'm sorry i am so hard
i swear to god, i'll be good
from now on, and

god bless that smile on your face
god bless the seeds in the ground
god bless my family's keen gaze, oh,
i know that whatever happens to you,
whatever happens to me,
i hope that i'll fall asleep
knowing that you'll always be
the story with no ending


***
Thanks, Lauren <3

also, the deer.

I hit a deer on Sunday.

I seemingly forgot to mention THAT. ha.
still waiting to hear what the total damage is from the body shop & my insurance co.
it may be totaled.
I'm not sure what that would mean for me in terms of owning an "operable vehicle".

this could be great, or it could be awful.
I'll know in the next few days.

Halloween 09!

WOOO.

Check out my sweet mask. Which I will be wearing all week.

I made it myself. Super easy...

Materials:
one piece of black felt
a few bags of feathers
a few bags of sequins
one elastic band
scissors
glue gun
music to dance to...

I didn't take any "process" photos, so you'll just have to close your eyes and imagine it. Ready?

...If you want to do it the way I did it:

1. put the felt on your face and imagine how big you want your mask to be.
2. fold the felt in half try to cut out your imaginary shape (I'm very specific.)
3. put the felt back on your face and pinch where your eyes should go.
4. cut slits for the eye holes, and then experiment. (lol, you're loving this. I can tell.)
5. finesse the shape (cut vertical lines and overlap the edges for the beak, and smooth out the edges)
6. measure your elastic.
7. have your little sister help you hold things to your face.
8. glue the elastic to your mask
9. start gluing on feathers and sequins
10. and feathers and sequins
11. and FEATHERS AND SEQUINS
12. don't burn yourself.

voila!
I'm a bird. Or something.


What are you going to be for Halloween?